MY EXPERIENCE AS A WALK-IN

WARNING: This page mentions topics such as sexuality/paraphilia, as well as sexual experiences of a young child. There is not graphical sexual abuse in the passage, but please click off if this is disturbing to you.

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It is first important to define what a 'Walk-In' is for those of you who are unfamiliar. Elaine Murray defines a walk-in as "an entity that takes over the body of one who wishes to depart, instead of being born as an infant". The idea of a 'Walk-In Soul' has been first proposed by Ruth Montgomery in her 1982 book 'Strangers Among Us'. I have admittedly only read a small passage, as later the book devolves into unrelated conspiracy.

A Walk-In Soul is, essentially, a separate soul that replaces the previous soul after the previous soul has reached its goal or cannot keep going. The agreement to exchange souls usually happens between the two souls in advance, and yet, sometimes, before the soul exchange occurs, the personality may feel depressed, fatigued, or suicidal. The new soul's goal is to "help humankind", and it is often filled with a sense of purpose. A common side-effect is apathy to previous memories - "Most walk-ins retain life facts without emotional attachments."

While many personal accounts of soul exchanges lead to positive change, my case is different in that the 'help' it was supposed to provide is more outwards than it is personal. My initial swap happened when I was 6 years old, then I have swapped again at 13, with the latter causing 'soul braiding'. It is important to clarify that I am not two people, but I am 2 souls inhabiting one body simultaneously. I do not remember much nor do I know what exactly has made my previous soul get discouraged and decide to walk out. All I know is that it still affects me today as HIS consciousness acts on mine intrusively and with no good intent.

My first swap happened when I was 6 years old, and this can be tracked with several pieces of evidence:

1. The spare 3-2 memories I have retained I cannot claim as my own and feel a complete apathy towards.
2. My previous pushy-bullying self-absorbed behavior that my parents later reported has taken a backseat, as I became primarily a victim in primary school. I was still acting up, and there was a thread of similar behaviors that HE re-picked from the environment I was growing up in, but it came with a permanent change of worldview.
3. Despite not previously having been exposed to adult content I have developed an inherent fetish that I have privately acted upon even before having access to the internet.

There is quite a big contradiction in this pattern in that the soul has not swapped with an adult one but rather one of a child, when the pattern found from most other cases is that the swap occurs in adulthood. The other problem is that the 'purpose' of a Walk-In Soul is usually described as a life-changing drive that is usually followed by positive change. In my case, I had become much more meek and victimized and developed a sexual deviation out of my control. This is because of a few reasons: one, I believe my soul is that of a previously living person. A Walk-In for many is a soul from another dimension or planet, while mine is a regular human being. Secondly, the soul was placed into me mistakenly.

This is a diagram I have come up with:



The three points, CHILD, MOTHER, and PERVERT (this one can be changed to general 'sexuality' or any other term of your choice; mine is a 'pervert' because I believe in my case any display of sexuality is immoral) are inherent to every person. You have all 3, everybody has all 3. They do not have specific feelings to come with them that I can universally define: the CHILD point may carry with it a feeling of freedom and genuiety, or it can come off as impulsiveness and impatience. There is only one idea that is concrete which are that every point has its own 'view'. MOTHER looks directly outwards of the person, CHILD looks to the sides including below and above, and PERVERT(*) looks fully inwards. It is sometimes that under those labels fall characteristics not inherent to the word: a very selfish person, for example, is close to the PERVERT corner. A person who reads a lot floats closer to CHILD. Someone who is paranoid and acts on it sits closer to MOTHER. At any given day, you may sit anywhere on the 3-point scale.

I bring this up, because, my childhood soul was primarily a PERVERT. The latter, CHILD, and especially MOTHER were severely atrophied. This could be followed by accounts of my poor behavior: I could not listen, sit still, show compassion, I would lie, not cooperate, and be all-around quite mean-spirited. The issue is, for full function, one must have all 3 of the points, or else they have blind spots and cannot truly live a life. I theorize that with sufficient time, the points could've organically developed, but my soul, burdened and aware of its failure has made an agreement with another soul to swap, as having only one point to reference it believed it had achieved it's goal (BE SELFISH).

With the addition of the new soul, an adult soul I identify as a permanently 21 year old male, I was no longer atrophied. I was top of the class in primary school without much thinking as it was easy for HIM to solve such easy questions (I was not, though, given any additonal knowledge that might've placed me higher; I wasn't able to skip a grade nor do the more complex tasks). The MOTHER point was unlocked, and while I wasn't very compassionate, my affection for fictional characters has morphed into maternal in nature rather than romantic, fantasizing and dreaming at night frequently about being a mother. Despite the positives, the PERVERT point has became a genuine sexual deviation instead of just selfishness. I had begun having detailed fantasies, searching them up in specifics as if I knew already as early as 7, and would frequently play the scenarios out with my toys. I never, NEVER has HE made me contact an adult and put me in a dangerous position. There were close calls but HE was much more cautious and understanding.

From my assessment, the soul swapped with me was swapped at random, with minimal consideration, from desperation, or informed by deception. I have determined that the specific deviance HE has is autopedophilia, which is why he was eager to inhabit a young child's body but not endanger said child. Living vicariously and overtaking my sexual autonomy in a closes system of just me and HIM was enough to pleasure him. My memories from the time period between 6 and 13 are very sparse and I feel apathetic towards them as well. I also perceive them as embarassing, as I know to assess the decisions as those of an adult instead of a pre-teen.

I had swapped again at age 13. HIS soul has fullfilled itself as well - I was entering puberty, and there was no point in controlling me anymore. At 13 I had become lucid, and can now access memories from that period I can more closely identify as mine, though loosely, as I seem to undergo continous metamorphosis as I age. But there is now one singular identifiable stream of growing consciousness. It is around 13 I have also began heaing 'voices'. I refer to them as such when they really arent; the collection of individuals in my head are other souls, other contenders for the position of a walk-in, but are stuck in a limbo.

This is because, by taking advantage of my reproductive organ and embedding a sexual deviance into my brain, HE has essentially tied HIMSELF to the body. He was uable to walk out, so when the second swap happened, we have overlayed. I believe somewhere on an astral level HE has asked for more candidates in hoped of release, which is why my brainspace is now full of more free-floating individuals. But HE cannot release, and while I am the primary inhibitor of the body, HE has his own power within me to screw with me.

Some things HE regularly does include:

- Frequent visions of child abuse (similar to what is termed 'intrusive thoughts', which include imagination, previously read passages, or medical diagrams unrelated)
- Instills paranoia about pedophilia/child abuse
- Heightened interest in researching sexuality and paraphilia and learning about child abuse cases
- Loud screeching sounds that stop all train of thoughts
- Loops audio and music that I am unable to stop
- Overtaking my mind's eye, by either portraying distorted children's faces, or making the people there appear as distorted/dead/splatters of blood
- Making me feel like there is something in my room/behind me/watching me
- Making me feel like there is something in my head that is after me
- General reclusiveness, disorientation, panic, sleeplessness, and disturbance
- Completely controls my libido and reproductive organ in spite my mood or feelings

How I determined HIS gender and age: HE is male because he is malevolent. HE has embedded in me common stereotypical male behaviors such as laziness, selfishness, lack of motivation. These are not inherently male characteristics but I am saying such as in if HE was raised stereotypically male, HE would most likely be like that. 21 is because pedophilia has been researched to set at multiple ages, but most commonly it has been reported between 17 and 20. (CITATION NEEDED). While HE has been with me most my life, some latter paranoia had only just began starting around last year. I believe it will escalate until HE will inevitably push me out of the body's control, or at the very least cause full paranoia and put me as the secondary drive of the body.

Note: While I cannot confidently call HIM a pedophile, I believe that the visions, and the age at which HE has began to instill paranoia in me, are at least meant to simulate how HE has grown into who HE is now and may be signs of the fact that HE has planned beforehand to use the body as a tool to act on HIS desires, having been depraved for years now. I believe HE is simulating developing a paraphilic disorder to make me believe I am truly developing one and do something drastic to release him.

Despite the above detailed analysis, I am still unsure what to do when I am 21 and HE will get more powerful. If I were to die and release all 30-something souls trapped in me, HE may find another victim. Otherwise, HE may use my body to act on HIS desires, which I would hate, hate, hate. I can now only continue living with about 3 years left until I will have to make a choice.

I hope this account was in any way useful. There are not many walk-in resources nowadays. Stories like these are very important and I believe I have a duty to share my struggle as struggles are not often represented when discussing walk-ins.

Outside Links:
New Age Fast - Walk-In Definition (Archive)
WHAT IS A WALK-IN AND WHAT DO THEY DO?
Christian Reincarnation - Walk-Ins
"Wanderer, Walk-In, Starperson, Starseed, Indigo, Beyonder, Blended Soul, Pleiadians, Arcturans, Taelons, Zetas, Self-Delusion - What's the Difference?" - Jody Boyne (Archive)
Walk-In Way Station (Archive)
Nibiruan Council - Starseed, Walk-in & Lightworker Series: Walk-in Challenges

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